Sunday – last day of July

Sitting in my boss/friends room making chili and watching a movie. Making chili for my peeps in China.  I could be cooking in my own room if I had a stove to cook on, but I don’t.

I have the final stats. from July’s month of health.  The numbers aren’t bad.  Lost 11 pounds and 15 inches all over.  Took photos and they look smaller or I look small I should say.  I was disapointed in the weight loss, especially since I only lost 3 pounds since the 12th, but I am thrilled about the inches. Thrilled about the way I feel. Thrilled about next months plan.  Just thrilled.  I logged every day of fitness and I worked out 20 of the 30 days.  All in all, it doesn’t seem like to much to do to loose weight.  But, I want to kick it up a notch next month anyway.  Here is my fitness log for the month of July 2011.

Like I said, really good. If I sustain this for the next 5 months, I like statistically where I will be by then.

Next month (which starts tomorrow on a Monday no doubt), I want to do 45 minutes of Cardio 5 times per week.  Do the C25K workout 3 times per week and then straight up elliptical the other days.

The Mango!

I have to take a moment to extol the virtues of the world greatest fruit; the mango.  It combines the two most sought after sensations for an orally fixated person such as myself; sweet and sour.

Combine that with a texture that I can only describe as “sex”. Yes, I said it, it taste like sex.  All the wonderful smoothness and sliminess of sex.  That my friend is what a mango feels like on my tongue, on my lips, and in my mouth.

I can’t believe it took me so long to discover this wonderful, life altering fruit.  But, now that I found it, I will never let it go.  Ah; the mango.



“When you’re good at something it create a confidence, when your insecure about something it creates an arrogance.”  Gordan Ramsey

Passion is energy. Feel the power that comes from focusing on what excites you.” Ludacris

These two quotes really struck me.  I see so many people around me who are so arrogant about what they do and when Gordon said that about this kid on Master Chef, it became all so clear.  When you are insecure about something, then you come off arrogant because you don’t want to be found out as a fraud.  But, confidence comes out of being good at something.

And, Ludacris is my new philosopher.  He is absolutely correct on this one.  Passion is energy.  I love that.  If you are passionate about something, you will get up early for it.  You will stay up late for it.  You will do it for free. Passion fuels energy and you are energetic about what you are passionate about.  Maybe that is why I am tired.  I am not passionate about what I do.  I get no energy from what I do.

What am I passionate about?

Tattoos – eat, breath and sleep information about tattoos.  I will stay up late and get up early for something related to tattoo.  I look up information on tattoos instead of working.

Food – i am down right obsessive about food.  I will stay up late, wake up early and think about it for days.  Right now, I am thinking about what I am going to eat on Sunday (Breakfast at Flying Pan and Dinner at Ruth Chris). I watch cooking competition shows because of the food porn.  Top Chef, Top Chef Masters, Master Chef, Rocco’s Dinner Party.  All brilliant television.  Megan’s fried chicken and creamed greens looked so good on the finale of MasterChef. I make a list of restaurants I have to eat at when I go back home to America and mark them off once of have eaten there. I spend a lot a time on food and it gives me energy, literally and theoretically.

So, here is my dilemma.  I can’t get a tattoo every time I want to.  I can’t work in a tattoo shop and I don’t think I will have the opportunity to meet, date, fall in love and marry Ami James.  And food, I can’t eat it all the time. I can’t eat what I want everyday all day.  I can’t eat Flying pan for breakfast, pizza hut for lunch and ruth chris for dinner every day.

I need to find my passion and make it my profession.

I tend to gravitate towards wanting to learn more about people who have a talent and get to do that talent for a job; e.g., chefs, tattoo artist, dancers, singers.  Not actors so much because I think that is a learned skill.  But, the others are talents.  You have to be born with the gift and then with opportunity and study you become good at it.  It is those things that people do and then it makes them smile and feel good after.  Like the way a singer feels after singing a song.

I watched “Never, Say Never” – Justin Beiber Movie.  You can tell he loves to sing and entertain.  At the end of singing that song with just himself and his guitar player her had that look on this face.  That pure bliss look.  That is what happens when people are passion about something.  It physically feels good to get to do that task.

It is the same satisfaction I imagine a dancer feels after a number or an artist feels after he finishes a piece.

Does writing give me that high? I don’t know.  I like doing this.  I like spending time on putting my thoughts in written form.  I like that they are there now forever.  Although not for every one to consume just yet.  Maybe someday.  But, they are there and it makes me happy.  Do I do it every day? No.  Do I stay up late to do it or wake up early to do it?  No.  I could, but I don’t.  I am not passionate about it.

How do I find what I am passionate about because where I am at and what I am doing right now is not my passion?

I am going to dedicate the next 18 months to finding what my passion is and pursuing it with all my heart.

The biggest mistake . . .

“The biggest mistake we make as human beings is thinking that everyone sees life the way we see it.”  – Ludacris (Didn’t no realizes he was so prothetic.  This from the man who gave us “Roll Out”. Smile!

I dont usually have this problem, some times, but not all the time.  I know people around me who have this problem big time.  Someone who doesn’t understand why people don’t see what she sees and thinks how they thinks.  She would rather get angry and see people fail instead of teaching them what she knows and what she expects.  Teach someone something and you both are happy.

Another big mistake people make is expecting others to feel like you feel about something.  I care about it so you have to care about it.  How self centered is that kind of thinking?

Another big mistake is putting other down so you feel better or wishing others fail too because of your own failings. How sad is your existence if it can only be bolstered by the failings of others?  And how can you measure your own happiness on the failings of another?

If you can find joy, hope, happiness and peace in others triumphs and listen, learn and grow from someone else’s tragedies, then you are always moving in positive light.

Live life in this way and perhaps your triumphs and tragedies will be the stuff that helps others as well.