I found myself perusing the Urban Dictionary (Webster’s is where squares go to find words) looking for a Z word and came across the word “zacker”.
Definition of “zacker” – a real bad ass. I love that.
“A real bad ass” is what I am feeling like right now because I finished the A to Z Challenge.
Zacker. Yep, that’s me. A real bad ass.
I finished and I am so proud of myself. I did it and I think I did it pretty good.
I tend to be one of those type of people who don’t all the time finish what I start. Or, I start something with enthusiasm and determination and then finish it at what I can only describe as “half assed”. *My blog isn’t typically filled with suck explicative. Sorry!
When I graduated from high school, I couldn’t wait to go away to college. I was super excited go to a school out-of-state that none of my other high school friends were going to. I was going to have the perfect college life. Life was full of promise and possibilities.
First semester, I had a 3.7 grade point average. Second semester, 1.7 and academic probation. I gave up and moved back home.
After my first year of law school I was in the top 1/3 of my class at Georgetown. I really wish someone had not told me that 3rd year students just need to show up for the exam to graduate. That is pretty much what I did. And, graduated in the bottom half. My rationalization: “Someone has to be in the bottom half.” I missed out on so much.
Let me pause here for clarification: I did go back to school. Florida States University – Go Noles! Georgetown doesn’t usually accept college drop outs.
I did have the opportunity to actually enjoyed the fact that I graduate and still no one has called me to ask for my diploma back. The celebration was short lived because then I had to get back in study mode for the bar exam. Need I remind you that I haven’t really been in a class all year. Long story short (to late – Clue Movie reference) I didn’t study like I should have and failed it. I haven’t try it again.
I have been writing all my life, but am reluctant to call myself a writer. All stories must have endings and I am too afraid to start writing my novel and not finish. It can’t be another thing that I give up on or don’t finish. I am not ready to fail at this yet.
But, finishing the A to Z Challenge has given me confidence, motivation and a little swagger as well. I am a bad ass. I can do this. I can finish something.
Hell, I am so bad ass I can finish anything I put my mind to.
In May, I will be outlining my novel and starting in June I will tackle another challenge. I have joined JuNoWriMo and have challenged myself to write 50,000 words in the month of June.
I am really excited to get this challenge underway and like the Zacker (not slacker) that I am, I have not doubt I will knock this challenge out the park.
Congratulation to all of you out there who finished the A to Z challenge. Thank so much to the organizers and for all those who stopped by and commented on my blog. I found some great blogs to follow during this challenge as well. I couldn’t have done it without you.
Sydney Aaliyah Michelle 